Monday, October 8, 2007

Robert Nathan Bernshausen

I am now
allowing myself
to be (come)
Robert Nathan Bernshausen.


Previously (as an inexperienced child),
I disallowed myself
to be
all
of me

and covered my wounds in pain.

As an inexperienced child, I changed my first name, to Bobby,
and hated the mention of my middle name, Nathan.
As an inexperienced child, if a kid called me Nathan,
I considered that to be both an ultimate insult
and an invitation to fight
(as I grossly misunderstood the concept of ultimate
at the time eh?).




Recently, I have been calling myself Robert in class
but friends can call me any honest name of endearment.

Earlier this week, I finally allowed myself to become,
and call myself,
Robert Nathan Bernshausen;


I view this fact, as an out-ward expression
of internal growth.

1 comment:

Kymmer said...

what is in a name? a name, i believe, is what you decide it means to you...sounds like you've accepted your name and are allowing yourself to grow; not down a path of negativity and running away, but positivity and moving forward. good luck as you continue down your path!

 
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